Lately

Tomorrow is Friday, I can't determine what I am going to do. I'm afraid it's going to be a shitty day, but I'll keep my head high and hope for the best. I might go to the bell game or atleast go to the beach at night, I really need that! Fakie is so fun on my bike, I seriously can't get enough of it.. it's a lot harder to control in tight areas but in a parking lot, you can just go for days! Haha funny saying that, yesterday I hit a parking bumper and went flying up backwards and landed on a bush.. it was a scary situation! I'm craving to go somewhere where I'll feel like more than just another person, I need to have a dosage of Long Beach again. I really miss my grandma, and last night I had the scary moments I used to always have. I'd wake up in the middle of the night and just think like fuck, what if I was dead, would I even be thinking? Perhaps I have a case of OCD or maybe it's just due to the fact I'm a manic-depressant. Usually I can tell you what stage I'm in, but right now I can't even tell! I fell asleep in class today and jumped, had a dream I was on my bike and ran over something and I flipped out of my bike. Oh well, life isn't going to bad lately, only thing I could use is this girl, she's pretty perfect. I always fall for the girls that you can't think of how to improve them, she's everything I need. Well laters, I'm going to go be a fob.

Struggling

With the knowledge I've obtained from those dark deeds
The desire never goes away, the craving, my heart bleeds
I know what I want and it's just how do I get there
Floating on my back with my eyes closed through the cold air
I'm on a never-ending journey and I don't know when I will awake
My eyes twitch and my hands start to shake
Is any of this real or not, we'll never know
All I can say is my heart is starting to show
Invisible by ignorance it finallys begins to awaken
For she holds the key to my heart
It's not over yet but together we'll make it to the end.

Heaven

Such a good combination, atleast in my single opinion. I really want to film a trick sesh, I have this steezy montage idea in my mind, but idk if a friend could film it good enough.

A mystery

People haven't seen the monster I've faced
The darkness I was covered in for months
The clouds went away and then sun came out
I felt like I was reborn and once again the little kid I knew
People don't know why I'm so serious all of the time
Why I act the way I do and display these weird patterns
I'll tell you it's slowly going away but til this day
I really wish I never took the red pill

She

She's so unappreciated and a real keeper too
I think of her as so much more than just a pretty face
She might not know it but I really do
She's everything you can ask for
She's independent, trustworthy, and not a whore
I'm writing this because I don't have the balls to say it to her face
I know it's funny but if I told her this she'd probably think of me as a disgrace
For being so weak and adoring her so much, she doesn't even know
I just wish there was a way to display this just to let her see
That if I could rearrange the alphabet I'd put u with me
Everyday I let her go by and act like I don't care
This was just a poem for me to share.

Steezy

Just found this cool.

End of October

Friday was a pretty good day, I dressed up as Trevor Spangler/Michael G/ or a typical hipster. Friday night Barron came over and made my day better due to not havin much fun after school. He's a fob and slept over and we watched Macaframa all night. The next day was Halloween, we dressed Vinh up as Mike Dinh and we all were hipstered out. Halloween was typical but we did see some funny things like Sean Featherstone jerking and a fat girl party. I gladly rejected alcohol and crap, I'm too good for it. We then ate a crap load and the fob and Barron slept over. Sunday was very boring but I did get pretty good at fakie which was fun! My tricklist is just expanding like crazy and I love it. Riding backwards is the best feelign you can have, especially when you know it's a hard thing to do. I hate this time change and it's pissed me off but I'm just chilling and overall this was a great weekend. :)

Positive

Today is a good day, I shall stay positive and think about Halloween rituals. I must make sure my family carves pumpkins, we really need spirit back in America, and the world wouldn't seem so bad. Christmas would actually mean something besides a great time for industries to make money. Today started off crappy, I've had that derealised feeling for the last few days and it sucks. That's why I didn't go to school Tuesday, just felt too unstable. Luckily, today turned around when Garrett came in to my art class and pretended to be a german exchange student. Mr. Eich didn't even notice him and it was fun just messing around. Next we made some scones or something in foods and I tasted one even though we weren't sposed to yet and it was magnificent. Jonathan picked me up after school and I had fun yelling get some gears to some kids. Later Antwuan came over and I tricked on my bike and just enjoyed my free time. We finished the night off with HOOters and it was pretty damn good. We had this really cute asian waitress and she took pics with us and we had fun playing wingo. Well, nothing really important else to say but stay true.

Moving on

So today wasn't exactly a fun day. I learned something weird this morning, changed my whole perspective, I just don't know if it's true or not. If it is, me and Vinh declared the beaners were right about 2012. Garrett popped Mohamad's tube, so then he was riding on his mountain bike with the rims and skidding, there was such a strong burning smell. Then he spray painted his bike like a tiger, and soon the fork was almost snapped from enormous bunny hops. It was pretty funny but jacked up, Garrett is going to repay Moe back though. I had a trick sesh and that was fun, but before I could even ride 1 mile my tube popped, a certain person pisses me off, not going to state his name. Well TJ, being the good friend he is went and bought me a new one thankfully. We put it on real quick but it was already way late in our day because we all procrastinated so much. I met some really weird hobo, had a strange but good conversation, he literally was just riding his beach cruiser by my house. Then I felt too tired and just went and have been sitting on my ass for hours. Anyways me and TJ are riding to Stanford and Magnolia to meet up with some guy, and soon I'm going to have a 46/17 ratio. Once again my tricking will go to a new level, or atleast this is what will motivate me.

A good day

Today was definitely a day that was needed. I had a lot of fun and went to Not Scary Farm, although I still had a great time. The scaryness has seemed to die, I remember a few years ago it just creeped me out insanely bad. Now I can walk through the mazes, and I only jumped a few times and it wasn't even a scared, just like a woah you got me there type of jump. I decided to eat like a duck and let's just say, I was so fucking stuffed it made me want to puke. I have to give that kid credit, half my size and can eat 10 times more than me. Kid's a beast and he's pretty funny, starting conversations with random beaners in the cars next to us and actually kept them going. I'm gonna sleep like a monster, I still don't know why I am awake. Haha, anyways we took a lot of pictures and will put on the space eventually. I still wish there was a way I could just plain out state my feelings, anyways peace world.

Screw the world sometimes

I've been thinking alot about how bad this world sucks. We have depression, anxiety, mental retardation, diabetes, alzheimers, parkisons, CANCER... you name it. I sometimes question the existence of this God and it makes me feel sour. Anyways to make my hate for the world grow even more, somebody stole a close friends bike and it just ticks me off. Why do kids have to be so ignorant?! Work for something yourself and don't steal it. Karma is coming and you will get what you deserve, I'll make sure of it. Atlast it's Friday tomorrow, means I get to enjoy life for a few days. It's really hard liking a girl strongly, and having it a hard time showing it. You just do the opposite of what your heart really desires. Being shy is a hard thing, but atleast I'm somewhat recognized this time. Peace out world, I'll do a favor and keep on riding my bike. We need to stay healthy and prevent all this crap like diseases and crap.