Lately

Tomorrow is Friday, I can't determine what I am going to do. I'm afraid it's going to be a shitty day, but I'll keep my head high and hope for the best. I might go to the bell game or atleast go to the beach at night, I really need that! Fakie is so fun on my bike, I seriously can't get enough of it.. it's a lot harder to control in tight areas but in a parking lot, you can just go for days! Haha funny saying that, yesterday I hit a parking bumper and went flying up backwards and landed on a bush.. it was a scary situation! I'm craving to go somewhere where I'll feel like more than just another person, I need to have a dosage of Long Beach again. I really miss my grandma, and last night I had the scary moments I used to always have. I'd wake up in the middle of the night and just think like fuck, what if I was dead, would I even be thinking? Perhaps I have a case of OCD or maybe it's just due to the fact I'm a manic-depressant. Usually I can tell you what stage I'm in, but right now I can't even tell! I fell asleep in class today and jumped, had a dream I was on my bike and ran over something and I flipped out of my bike. Oh well, life isn't going to bad lately, only thing I could use is this girl, she's pretty perfect. I always fall for the girls that you can't think of how to improve them, she's everything I need. Well laters, I'm going to go be a fob.