Lately

Tomorrow is Friday, I can't determine what I am going to do. I'm afraid it's going to be a shitty day, but I'll keep my head high and hope for the best. I might go to the bell game or atleast go to the beach at night, I really need that! Fakie is so fun on my bike, I seriously can't get enough of it.. it's a lot harder to control in tight areas but in a parking lot, you can just go for days! Haha funny saying that, yesterday I hit a parking bumper and went flying up backwards and landed on a bush.. it was a scary situation! I'm craving to go somewhere where I'll feel like more than just another person, I need to have a dosage of Long Beach again. I really miss my grandma, and last night I had the scary moments I used to always have. I'd wake up in the middle of the night and just think like fuck, what if I was dead, would I even be thinking? Perhaps I have a case of OCD or maybe it's just due to the fact I'm a manic-depressant. Usually I can tell you what stage I'm in, but right now I can't even tell! I fell asleep in class today and jumped, had a dream I was on my bike and ran over something and I flipped out of my bike. Oh well, life isn't going to bad lately, only thing I could use is this girl, she's pretty perfect. I always fall for the girls that you can't think of how to improve them, she's everything I need. Well laters, I'm going to go be a fob.

Struggling

With the knowledge I've obtained from those dark deeds
The desire never goes away, the craving, my heart bleeds
I know what I want and it's just how do I get there
Floating on my back with my eyes closed through the cold air
I'm on a never-ending journey and I don't know when I will awake
My eyes twitch and my hands start to shake
Is any of this real or not, we'll never know
All I can say is my heart is starting to show
Invisible by ignorance it finallys begins to awaken
For she holds the key to my heart
It's not over yet but together we'll make it to the end.

Heaven

Such a good combination, atleast in my single opinion. I really want to film a trick sesh, I have this steezy montage idea in my mind, but idk if a friend could film it good enough.

A mystery

People haven't seen the monster I've faced
The darkness I was covered in for months
The clouds went away and then sun came out
I felt like I was reborn and once again the little kid I knew
People don't know why I'm so serious all of the time
Why I act the way I do and display these weird patterns
I'll tell you it's slowly going away but til this day
I really wish I never took the red pill

She

She's so unappreciated and a real keeper too
I think of her as so much more than just a pretty face
She might not know it but I really do
She's everything you can ask for
She's independent, trustworthy, and not a whore
I'm writing this because I don't have the balls to say it to her face
I know it's funny but if I told her this she'd probably think of me as a disgrace
For being so weak and adoring her so much, she doesn't even know
I just wish there was a way to display this just to let her see
That if I could rearrange the alphabet I'd put u with me
Everyday I let her go by and act like I don't care
This was just a poem for me to share.

Steezy

Just found this cool.

End of October

Friday was a pretty good day, I dressed up as Trevor Spangler/Michael G/ or a typical hipster. Friday night Barron came over and made my day better due to not havin much fun after school. He's a fob and slept over and we watched Macaframa all night. The next day was Halloween, we dressed Vinh up as Mike Dinh and we all were hipstered out. Halloween was typical but we did see some funny things like Sean Featherstone jerking and a fat girl party. I gladly rejected alcohol and crap, I'm too good for it. We then ate a crap load and the fob and Barron slept over. Sunday was very boring but I did get pretty good at fakie which was fun! My tricklist is just expanding like crazy and I love it. Riding backwards is the best feelign you can have, especially when you know it's a hard thing to do. I hate this time change and it's pissed me off but I'm just chilling and overall this was a great weekend. :)